Thursday, August 17, 2017

TJ's blog post #2: Classmates, Drugs, Friendships and Conversation

We need Realism to deal with Reality" - Slick Rick

Keep your personal info secret. Not even if it seems you can share with me.
Aright, you can share with me, but sometimes it erratically get too much, and then the whole reasoning will keep repeating over my head till you explain yourself weeks later when I decide to finally ask you about it. And then the person I thought you were changes in my mind... to nearly the same person, but the new thought I've learned of you stays in the back of my head.
It happens to a lot of friends I've gained over the years. You think this persons cool and close till you find something new about them, and you want to keep asking why they thought it was okay, or what happened to them all the time. You wanna keep asking questions but you know its gonna get pestering and ruin the friendship you already had with this person.
Nope, just me then.
I'm very anal, or should I say, picky with a lot of things. I wont get over things too easily. I would wish I didn't learn something you told me, or if I found it out myself on social media, I would think about it for minute, days, hours until I get to talk to you in person about it. But once its in my mind, it cant escape, even when I see you sometimes no matter how much I try.
If I like you, I wanna know everything about you. If I have a crush on you, I wanna know everything and more. I would ask questions on girls I crushed on. "Do you do drugs? Do you believe in the lord and savior I believe in? Do you read comic books? Do you listen to Outkast?" Do you blah blah blah. Id be asking questions; its the biggest giveaway that I want more to do with you. I wanna make sure your right for me, and nothings gonna ruin this relationship later on.
Or I just like you as just a friend, and I wanna get involved in your life more.
So the fact is, after a while, (I'm just saying stuff) for example, if i'm talking to you, and if it randomly comes up that you said you smoke weed once, or you do it on the daily, it might surprise me, cause not only is it "still" illegal, but I thought you were a different person in my mind that would never smoke the devil's lettuce. But you apparently did it anyways. And that changes my opinion of you. Not a lot, cause although a small piece of me (1%) wants to distance myself away from you for no reason, I still like you as a person after all we've been through, and that's why the other 99% stays with you, which would guess would make me trustworthy, if you believe I am. But what da heck brah. I have never touched a drug related item. I have never inhaled through anything that wasn't oxygen. I'm just a "against drugs guy."And that goes towards anything I might be socially incorrect towards. I wont list anything down, but if your curious you can just ask.
Im not saying my friends, Im saying I just see alot of people get sucked in, some I dont know, into the mind of things that, us teens, shouldn't be even thinking about doing. Its not wrong I wanna be near people who have the same views I do. And I shouldn't be bothered by what anyone says because like I said, I wanted to know everything about you.
The fact that I learn more and more stuff from each friend each day that wasn't just put on the table till it was brought up is scary. I promise you I don't hide anything. And if I had stuff to say, I would say it. I'm mostly an open book. I have special friends I share stuff with, like who I like in school or my special grades, we all do. But I know what to keep under the table as well, if there is anything.  Theres other people who, oddly want to flaunt stuff that really shouldn't be shown to others on social media. And I dont mean there body. (Although my DM's are to the right ladies ;) ) But no one wants to see your "unsafe" lifestyle. And it'll get you in trouble, along with whacha doing with whats making me uncurtain about you in the first place.
So whoever reads this blog I know its not going to stop you from anything, cause why listen to me right? But i'm just saying in general, and as a topic. I'm not going to enjoy what everyone does, its just the type of person I am. I also don't have to approve of peoples lives. What they do to themselves is there thing, not mine, and I can take a step back. But if I do see it around and I really care about you, dont think I wont step in to make sure your safe. So if stuff like this does happen in the future, I'm trying to help me and you, and im sorryfor being picky. But hey, thats how I am, and Im not gonna change. And thats not a bad thing, ether.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

TJ's blog post #1: Who are my real friends?

Its been a while sense I created my own blog post. Used to do it all the time in middle school for fun, so I don't know how many friends/people would actually read my stuff, that is, if they even care for me and my life. Every week I'm going to be talking about me daily, and things I feel need to be brought up about myself, because I'm guaranteed you barely know the real side of me, no matter how much you hang with me. So here's where you'll see me completely raw, not just jokes and giggles. Completely raw thoughts, right here in words. So I decided to start off the blog with something easy I can talk about, and I hope you can relate to it too.

Friends.. 
Real friends, how many of us?
How many of us, how many jealous? Real friends
It's not many of us, we smile at each other
But how many honest? Trust issues
Switched up the number, I can't be bothered
I cannot blame you for havin' an angle
I ain't got no issues, I'm just doin' my thing
Hope you're doin' your thing too - Kanye West

I like people, I really do. But I wouldn't call everyone in school my friend. Not everyone deserves to be my pal, sounds petty, but its the truth. Some people don't acknowledge me in the hallway. But most people do give me a dap, or at least a "Hey Terrence! How ya doing!!" And it really does make me feel good inside, cause I feel like I have put impact on someone's live, no matter what it is. Its more like showing off appreciation. And I appreciate anyone who wants to say hi to me.

I sometimes think of the few "real" friends I feel I have and think about the reality, "Will I still be hanging out with these so called "friends" in 10 years? Or even 5 years." Its a question that will continue to bug me until the time actually comes in the future. No matter what you think, I don't have a problem with anyone in school. I try not to have "beef" with anyone, unless they wanna start some. And if they did wanna start some, I would just ignore it, they'll get over it, cause I dont need that negative energy in my mind. As you know, I don't like getting mad. Like really, when have you seen me actually pissed at someone or something. I breathe in and out. Sure, its not the best thing, I dont even use hard cussing in my vocabulary. Apparently cursing lets out pain and bad energy you might have. But, whatever I do, it works for me, for at least the time. Maybe its why I might have anxiety. Might. 

But back to friends. I cant trust anyone. Cause people I feel like i'm close to trusting, they end up, guess what, letting me down! It always happens! And I know a lot of you guys and girls feel this way too. Whether its a backstab or a broken promise, you, well I, don't allow myself to put myself in front of others sometimes. Why? Cause would they do the same for me? Ask yourself that. Look at all your friends, and think about each one for 5 minutes, and say to yourself "Would they do the same for me?"

I don't believe in best friends, cause what if a best friend can change as well. I didn't believe in having a best friend until 10th grade, I only have like, 3 actual best friends, and I even have the fear that they might let you down. But... I guess.. I can forgive them. Cause everyone has there falling outs, Cause they're my friend and what not, etc...

Its sorta like love. You fall in love with someone who has the same interest as you, cute personality, and you... you just really like the person, and want to be with them all the time. Even if there not interested in what you have to offer, you really want to find a way for at least a long lasting friendship to last.

But your also not sure to trust this person, and they end up making some bull that lets you down. Then its over. There done with you, but your not completely done with them, and theirs no way you can spread out your feelings again. For multiple reasons. No matter what they are

With friends its eaiser, cause if they were assholes to you, then you can dump them on sight. You'll find someone else to hang with, be cool with, and netflex n chill with. Not sure if it makes sense, but it keeps getting harder and harder to know who's your actual friends in the school. But it doesn't bother me, I just keep hanging with everyone, as you should too. Just dont let people bother you, just like love, it will upset you for a while, but it will eventually go away. If you can skip all the stages of being sad for yourself after they stopped talking to you or you have a big falling out with a really good friend, then it will  help you more in the long run. Not everythings going to work out, and you gotta really think of who you could actually trust, and who you hate.

Everyone who thinks there friends with me, im friends with you. We're cool. If your not sure, DM me somewhere.

I have bigger topics on my mind, but this was just an easy starting out. Blogs daily, stay tuned if you liked. Any topics you want to test me with or bring up, you know how to get to me! Ima go watch some Big Time Rush now. :)

Terrence J.


Sunday, June 14, 2015

Phineas And Ferb Memories.... Creator Letter.

I remember the first time I watched Phineas and Ferb.
This is what I really can fondly remember. It came across to me the other day when I found out that one of my favorite cartoons running for the past 8 years were coming to a close June 12, 2015.
It was February 2008. I was 6/7 years old. I just started to watch Disney Channel on TV.
One day while watching the channel I see these commercials for this new show coming out in February. Disney really showed that they cared about the show, as they promoted that Phineas and Ferb was a new show coming soon. Instead of saying Phineas and Ferb was coming this February, they changed the name of the month on their channel to "Ferburary." They said a new episode was going to air every weekday at 8:00pm for the next 2 weeks. As a 7 year old kid who loved to watch cartoons like "Spongebob" on television, I was interested to learn more.
As I'm writing this, more memories come back to me. I was in my living room, watching the first episode airing. {Rollarcoaster aired back in August, so I think I missed out on that episode until it aired again. before new episodes.} I don't really remember what my first episode was, but it got me hooked. Every weekday for the next 2 weeks I would remember if Phineas And Ferb was on, and I would watch it. I remember my cousin coming over who was a year younger than me.  And I said "Hey its 8! Lets watch this new show on Disney Channel, I really love watching it." He goes, "Whats that." as I guess he hasn't heard of Phineas and Ferb yet. I kept saying how much I loved the show as we watched it together, and he was also hooked.
I can remember the best moments of the show when they aired, Disney Channel always used to marathon the show, and they still do, on Disney XD. I watched the show by myself, with my cousin, with my mom. I got the "Perry Files" Dvd from Best Buy a few years back when it came out. I remember when the soundtrack came out and I wanted to get it from amazon. "Mom, it says theres 3 left in stock! We have to get it now before they run out forever!!!" I remember when the hour-long special, Summer Belongs to You came out. And I remember when the movie came out. Phineas and Ferb Across the Second Dimension.{I forgot it was coming out on the day it aired so I had to watch it the next day!} I watched most episodes when they aired, every Friday at 9, on Disney Channel, or sometimes they would air early on Disney XD. I guess I remember a lot about the show.
Earlier this year I wondered when there was gonna be new episodes of Phineas And Ferb again. I also realized that the show was on its 4th season.
"I wondered if PnF was gonna have a fifth season", as I hoped.
Until recently, I found out, on May 12, 2015, something happened I couldn't believe.
Phineas And Ferb was ending.
I was on the computer during lunch in school.
I researched the show to see if there was gonna be new episodes airing this year.
The news came out. I was expecting the end for a while because of how most disney shows end by there 3rd or 4th season, but somehow, I was just still really surprised.
Jeff Swampy March, and Dan Povenmire wrapped up production, and the show is over.
I said, wow, its actually ending.
And on my way home I remembered all of these flashbacks I wrote about here.
I really wanted to talk about how much this show meant to me.
Back in 2008, I was 6/7. Now I just turned 14 the other day.
I thought about this the other day. I literally grew up from this show. I started watching this show in Kindergarden/First Grade. I'm about to graduate from 8th Grade soon.
I'm glad this show is able to have the finale it deserves, because, PnF made a lot of kids, teens, and even adults happy.
This show felt like it was never gonna end. Summer was going to last forever.
I cant believe it was ending.
I never knew when someone said a piece of there childhood has ended when a show ended. I got upset when a show I liked ended because it was short lived.
Phineas and Ferb ran for 8 years. I loved every episode after the next one. Me growing up as a child and now a teenager is great. Growing up with a show I started from the beginning, to now, ending at 8:00 pm today, June 12.
It was ending.
I don't want to get boring talking about the show.
So I got one thing, just one more thing to say to the creators of Phineas and Ferb, Dan Povenmire and Jeff Swampy Marsh.
Thank you. I love this show. I will keep watching the show on TV and netflex.
I still cant believe the show is ending today.
Im still thinking of memories I can't explain.
Even disney is playing old commericals from 2008 I remember.
Thanks for making characters I love on the show.
I also found out that you guys worked on "Family Guy, the Simpsons...etc.."  Shows I love now. I have the complete series for Rockos I bought a whille ago, I didn't even you worked on the show. I love that show even more now.
I hope to meet you guys at a convention soon, like New York Comic Con.
Thank You.
And goodbye Phineas and Ferb, Perry, Doof, Candace, and all the other great characters that made up this great show.
And to Disney, WE NEED A COMPLETE SERIES DVD SET WITH BONUS FEATURES AND COMMENTARY AND MORE!!! THAT WOULD BE AWESOME!!!
Terrence John 2, 14 year old, June 12, 2015
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Thursday, April 2, 2015

Steven Universe: Say Uncle review. {Uncle Grandpa Crossover}

Its been a while sence I've been on this blog. But I really had to talk about this episode.

My thoughts before this episode was that I hoped Pizza Steve gets eaten by amethyst.
We will get back to that.
But to be honest I thought it was cool that Steven Universe, my all time favorite show on Cartoon Network at this moment in time, and Uncle Grandpa was going to be together in a 11-minute episode.
As long as its not cannon. {wink}
Now, I remember watching UG when it first came out.
I didn't hate it. I didn't love it. But I did think it was a OK show, but I think that's because I  never really hate something. I haven't been wanting the need to watch uncle grandpa save for a few episodes after that experience but, once again, I didn't hate it, it was just different to me.
But Netflix has the show on there now so I can catch up to it!
Steven Universe is a show I LOVE and every episode I watch get me wanting more. Yes, I am up to date with the show and one of my favorite episodes is Jailbreak but besides that, I am dying from cartoon network not putting this show out faster as a season 1 boxset on blu ray with tons of special features and commentaries and subtitles.
If it ever happens.
But my rant about CN never finishing there shows on season dvds will come another time.

But back to the crossover.
SPOILERS AHEAD.

Not seeing a bunch of uncle grandpa, I still knew all the characters.
And having to see all the SU in the world I hoped just like the rest of the fandom that this was not canon.
Cause the description on wikipedia for this episode said:
"Uncle Grandpa comes to town to aid Steven in unlocking the power of his mother's gem".
WHAT.
 Literally the first minute of this episode UG comes to the SU universe dressed as Rose {Stevens Mom} and the funniness ensues.
Stevens upset that he keeps making a bubble instead of a shield with his jem and UG {as he does to other kids he finds} tries to help him out.
AFTER ALL, HES EVERYONE'S UNCLE AND GRANDPA!!!
"Don't worry bro, none of this is canon."
That made me laugh.
"BUT THIS IS!!!'
I haven seen a lot of UG but is the show really all about breaking the forth wall? Its a Chowder pun but overused all over this show!

 But its cool, I enjoy it.
Oh yeah Uncle Grandpa put his head in the CANNON and it hit a ship.
THAT SADIE AND LARS WERE ON!
That's right guys. The Ship is over.
And meanwhile they say its a April fools joke.
But its OK its not cannon. I mean canon.
The best part of this episode is Pearls reaction towards seeing this stranger that she has never seen before. GEE PEARL EVER HEARD OF DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!
But all of the gems hate uncle grandpa, acting like he doesn't deserve to be in this universe and they try to destroy him Steven and UG escape into the UG world.
Amethyst trips over the letter why when there was a word on the ground and says "WHYYYYY!!!"
It makes more sense if you watched the episode.

There we have Gus and the cool as pizza, pizza steve. {Who I do like}.
A funny gag happens between Gus and Pizza Steve which I did enjoy.
Pearl, Garnet and the purple one I don't feel like spelling her name cause its hard gets trapped in the white background tobuscus hangs out in and more funnyness ensues.
My dream of this episode was to have amethyst eat pizza steve. Not that I hate him, but its something she would do.
AND I AM NOT MAKING THIS UP I WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN AND IT DID!
Rest in Pieces Steve. You will always be cool to me...
Man, this show is getting hardcore. That's like 3 characters who died today.
Garnet wants the episode to be over, and I think this the first crossover I have watched without thinking it was rushed and it shouldn't be extended into a hour or something.
UG gets Steven to make a shield and reactions by the gems mostly pearl are the funniest reactions I have seen sense last weeks reactions in this episode.
I feel like this turned into a anime with the weird reactions coming from the gems. Its just missing a spinning rainbow behind them.
At the End Uncle Grandpa sees who he has to help out next for pain and suffering and he pulls out a list of CHARACTERS FROM CARTOON NETWORK!
I don't completely remember, but I saw Billy and Mandy [Could of made a throwback to them and Kids Next Door, but oh well} edd edd n eddy,{These are all kids!} Finn {Oh CRAP A MISSING ADVENTURE TIME EPISODE ITS THE NEXT RUDE REMOVAL ASK PEN WARD WHO'S GONNA HELP ME FIND IT!!!} and the last person UG didnt help yet is the innocent Clarence.
OH SNAP CLARENCE CROSSOVER!!! GET READY!!!
I'm looking too much into this. 
Whille were at it, I want more UG crossovers!!! Lets get him into regular show! lets bring back chowder!
Oh boy, you can stop reading now. BUT HEAR MY WORDS. OR READ.  
I feel bad for the people who did say they were gonna miss it and they will read the spoilers online. Its just a FUN EPISODE. Come on, you gotta give some things a chance. Its really sad how even hearing that this was Rebecca Sugars Idea, some of the fan base still looked away from this entertaining episode.
Well they should believe in Steven next time.
But whatever happens. 
UG is still your UNCLE AND YOUR GRANDPA...
And maybe they will cross again in the comics.
Terrence John 2. {13 year old, no knowledge of blogging.}
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