We need Realism to deal with Reality" - Slick Rick
Keep your personal info secret. Not even if it seems you can share with me.
Aright, you can share with me, but sometimes it erratically get too much, and then the whole reasoning will keep repeating over my head till you explain yourself weeks later when I decide to finally ask you about it. And then the person I thought you were changes in my mind... to nearly the same person, but the new thought I've learned of you stays in the back of my head.
It happens to a lot of friends I've gained over the years. You think this persons cool and close till you find something new about them, and you want to keep asking why they thought it was okay, or what happened to them all the time. You wanna keep asking questions but you know its gonna get pestering and ruin the friendship you already had with this person.
Nope, just me then.
I'm very anal, or should I say, picky with a lot of things. I wont get over things too easily. I would wish I didn't learn something you told me, or if I found it out myself on social media, I would think about it for minute, days, hours until I get to talk to you in person about it. But once its in my mind, it cant escape, even when I see you sometimes no matter how much I try.
If I like you, I wanna know everything about you. If I have a crush on you, I wanna know everything and more. I would ask questions on girls I crushed on. "Do you do drugs? Do you believe in the lord and savior I believe in? Do you read comic books? Do you listen to Outkast?" Do you blah blah blah. Id be asking questions; its the biggest giveaway that I want more to do with you. I wanna make sure your right for me, and nothings gonna ruin this relationship later on.
Or I just like you as just a friend, and I wanna get involved in your life more.
So the fact is, after a while, (I'm just saying stuff) for example, if i'm talking to you, and if it randomly comes up that you said you smoke weed once, or you do it on the daily, it might surprise me, cause not only is it "still" illegal, but I thought you were a different person in my mind that would never smoke the devil's lettuce. But you apparently did it anyways. And that changes my opinion of you. Not a lot, cause although a small piece of me (1%) wants to distance myself away from you for no reason, I still like you as a person after all we've been through, and that's why the other 99% stays with you, which would guess would make me trustworthy, if you believe I am. But what da heck brah. I have never touched a drug related item. I have never inhaled through anything that wasn't oxygen. I'm just a "against drugs guy."And that goes towards anything I might be socially incorrect towards. I wont list anything down, but if your curious you can just ask.
Im not saying my friends, Im saying I just see alot of people get sucked in, some I dont know, into the mind of things that, us teens, shouldn't be even thinking about doing. Its not wrong I wanna be near people who have the same views I do. And I shouldn't be bothered by what anyone says because like I said, I wanted to know everything about you.
The fact that I learn more and more stuff from each friend each day that wasn't just put on the table till it was brought up is scary. I promise you I don't hide anything. And if I had stuff to say, I would say it. I'm mostly an open book. I have special friends I share stuff with, like who I like in school or my special grades, we all do. But I know what to keep under the table as well, if there is anything. Theres other people who, oddly want to flaunt stuff that really shouldn't be shown to others on social media. And I dont mean there body. (Although my DM's are to the right ladies ;) ) But no one wants to see your "unsafe" lifestyle. And it'll get you in trouble, along with whacha doing with whats making me uncurtain about you in the first place.
So whoever reads this blog I know its not going to stop you from anything, cause why listen to me right? But i'm just saying in general, and as a topic. I'm not going to enjoy what everyone does, its just the type of person I am. I also don't have to approve of peoples lives. What they do to themselves is there thing, not mine, and I can take a step back. But if I do see it around and I really care about you, dont think I wont step in to make sure your safe. So if stuff like this does happen in the future, I'm trying to help me and you, and im sorryfor being picky. But hey, thats how I am, and Im not gonna change. And thats not a bad thing, ether.
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